School O’clock

Well today seeing as I had been given the all clear I was heading back to school which I really didn’t want to do but hey when did I ever actually want to go to school? as usual I was just hoping to be able to slip back into school and act as though nothing had happened and all was fine without any questions being asked etc because I knew no one in my class cared any way and I didn’t want people to think I was weak or vulnerable (even though I really was) and well that was exactly how the day started out everyone just accepted me back in the class without asking any questions as to why I’d been off for as long as I had or anything else so that was all well and good and things were well, normal but little did I know something special was going to happen today

 

First lesson was art which I suck at and take after my dad with his drawing skills which is that of just being able to draw a stick man and even that’s effort (luckily this year I didn’t have Mrs Linsell-Clark thank god) instead this year I had a really nice art teacher Mr Fisher and he knew I sucked at art and well I think he felt sorry for me bless him as he’d always come over and try to compliment my work even though we both clearly knew how bad it really was anyway a few minutes into the lesson we had to go to an assembly which hardly ever happens unless something really serious has happened that they want to talk to the whole school about and year group by year group would head to the hall for an assembly or the only other time this had ever happened before was if it was coming to the end of term when we had end of term assemblies or any other special thing like this but no one knew what this one was about

 

When we got into the assembly something told me this was the good kind of assembly purely because there was a guest speaker at the front of the room and there seemed a good atmosphere around so yeah I knew this was the good kind of assembly but what was it about?

 

Seeing as our school was soon linking up with two other schools in the area and becoming an academy we had one of the governors from one of the schools come in to talk to us which sounds more like the boring type of assembly but as soon as everyone was quiet he started playing the song 5000 miles by the proclaimers and once the song stopped he explained how his daughter was in an accident and was treated at Great Ormond Street Hospital and how every year their school does a 10k walk around the London Bridges and I got soo excited I honestly couldn’t believe what I was hearing and he said how seeing as our schools were going to be joining up as joint academies that we were invited to go along on this walk and of course sitting there so excited thinking oh my god is this a coincidence  or what I’ve only just returned to school after recovering from an operation I’d had at Great Ormond Street Hospital and the first day back were having a talk about Great Ormond Street Hospital and the work that they do and watching short clips and videos of their work being asked to help raise money for them which of course I had no doubts about I was doing this for them how could I not do it ? I was soo excited about it and I knew I was doing it and no one could change my mind on this

 

When we got back to our art class one of the girls turned round to me and goes oh yeah you just had an operation didn’t you so said yeah and she goes oh right where’d you have it done so said Great Ormond Street Hospital and she just oh ok and in all honesty I don’t think she quite believed me although she did ask how it went and left it after that but yeah the rest of the day I was so excited I honestly just wanted to get home and ask mum and dad if I could do it which I really hoped I could because I wanted to do this so badly I would do anything for Great Ormond Street Hospital

 

Luckily when I did get home mum was fine about me doing it although said her and dad wouldn’t be doing it with me which really didn’t bother me just so long as I could do it that was all that mattered and mum and dad were fine about it as long as I didn’t back out of it (where they kidding why on earth would I be backing out of this??!!) so the next day I handed my form in and that was it all official I would be taking part in a 10K walk around the London Bridges to raise money for the amazing Great Ormond Street Hospital and I couldn’t be any more excited or happier to be doing this for such an amazing charity and hospital

Back To School Again…

Well it was unfortunately time for me to be heading back to school again this always one of the worst bits of having any time from school is knowing that I’ll have to go back to school which I hate not because it’s school and no one likes school but just due to the way I was treated by the other kids it always made it really hard and off-putting to go back to school and I worried about all sorts of things such as would I just be accepted back like nothing had happened(which I always hoped I would) , would I have people making problems for me ? what if something didn’t go right? and yeah I used to have to try to plan and predict ahead what could happen , what might happen and the likely hood of ir happening and just hoping and praying all would go well

 

 

One my first day back after my second stage of rib graft well everything seemed to go really well without anyone asking why I had been away for so long , what happened to my hair or anything like that but however when I got into registration that morning my tutor came over to me to see how I was and asking how everything went and all of that which was quite sweet but I didn’t really want the rest of the class knowing anything about why I had been off for as long as I had or anything so only replied with minimal answers like yes i’m fine thanks yes all went really well and that kind of thing so not to catch any of the others attention or to draw attention to myself because that’s exactly what I didn’t want all I wanted to do was to just blend into the background like nothing had happened rather than to stick out like a sore thumb and have all eyes and attention on me  but however I was quickly told by my tutor that she had assigned me a buddy because I would have to leave class five minutes early so that I could avoid the rush of students and teachers going off in various directions to various lessons but I was more than capable of doing this on my own I don’t see why I had to have a buddy and I was bit not upset I don’t know what the word i’m searching for is but I was a bit hurt I suppose you can say as it meant my whole tutor group knew why I had been off which I hadn’t wanted them to ,Ok fair enough I hadn’t expressed this to my tutor or anything but still I didn’t really expect this I was more than happy to go and let all of my class teachers know or put my hand up in class to remind them of the fact I’d be leaving 5 minutes earlier rather than feeling babied and having to wait for Jade to turn up outside the class I was in before I could leave

 

Anyway heading to my first lesson with Jade five minutes earlier was a bit awkward as we hadn’t ever really spoken to one another before but she turned round and said how our tutor had asked who would like to be my buddy and help me out by taking me to lessons 5 minutes earlier and picking me up from them and I was told that no one else wanted to be my buddy and no one volunteered (including herself) but then our tutor went up to her and told her she had to do it which made me feel a bit rubbish about myself and the fact that no one actually wanted to do it and so Jade just ended up lumbered with the responsibility of doing it which I could tell she didn’t really want to be doing and I felt sorry for her having to do it but I did kind of wish she had pretended to want to do it or sounded a bit positive about it or actually not told me that bit but I suppose I needed to hear it really but yeah wasn’t exactly how I had imagined or planned my first  day back at school going in all honesty let alone the next few weeks and months that this was going to go on for …

Back To School

Well it was finally the end of my weeks recovery meaning it really was time for me to be heading back to school today which I was excited but nervous about how everyone would react seeing as I had now been away for 2 whole weeks ,I knew things would be different when I went back into school as I wouldn’t be going out for play time at break or lunch and instead I would have to spend it sitting in the reception as there was a risk of me being knocked either in the ribs during play or one of the balls being thrown to hard and hitting my ear etc and things would also be different as I wouldn’t be joining in PE for at least 3 months which was pretty much the rest of the time we had remaining at junior school .So it wasn’t as though I was going to be going back to school and everything was going to be normal or as it was before I left because to think that would just be silly as I knew it wasn’t but I hoped things would still go well and be alright for me .I also hoped that i’d be able to settle back in again and I suppose in a way pretend and act like nothing had happened even though it had if that makes sense ?

Things actually went really well and it wasn’t really anything to worry about I was taken in through the reception so that I could avoid the crowds in the playground of children all trying to get through one door at once which made things easier (plus meant I got to class earlier than the others which they  couldn’t figure out how ) and to be honest my class didn’t really treat me any different from what they had when I first  left to go  into hospital 2 weeks ago which was a great start obviously my friends in the class such as Daniel knew why I had been away and so did my teacher who said how it was nice to have me back which was quite sweet of him to say

I had obviously missed a fair bit of work whilst I had been off so had a lot of catching up to do in lessons which wasn’t too bad to be fair but however something which did upset me a bit was that fact every year the year 6’s do a levers play that everyone in the year group has to take part in but sadly due to me being off I missed out on getting my part but luckily all was quickly resolved as Mrs Murphy our class LSA said that I could prompt people if they forgot their lines or something so I would be on hand to whisper it or shout it whatever round the corner so they remembered what they were meant to be doing and when it was the group songs I’d have to take part and Mrs Murphy would do the prompting which all sounded great and I was told I would be given everyone’s scripts on the day which was all fine by me

Over the next few weeks I did start getting bored sitting in reception on my own for all break and lunch although I was told a friend could sit with me but they never really wanted to sit in reception with me for all of break and lunch let alone just one of them if I was lucky someone might come and sit with me for about five minutes or so then go off to play in the playground with everyone else so it did get a bit lonely really of a break and lunch hmm sounds familiar from one of my previous blogs

As the last weeks of year 6 quickly came around we were sitting out SATS exams so that our secondary school could know what levels we were at and so on also in the UK this seems to for some reason be a tradition but everyone signs your school shirt with messages etc really we were supposed to take a spare in to change into once everyone had written on your shirt but the school didn’t want me to do this as they were worried about me knocking my ear or my ribs so I was allowed to keep my signed shirt on for the day which was pretty cool 🙂  we also did weird little things such as putting tents up in groups :S and our leavers play had finally arrived which we had to perform to our parents and anyone in the community who decided to come and watch .We all had to gather in one of the class rooms and wait until we were called to stage so I explained how I was supposed to be prompting and I was told someone would come and get me when they needed me but no one did so the only part I ended up playing was just singing all of the whole year songs that we had to do which i wish I had have been able to have taken a part whether it was just a small one but oh well life goes on .Also near to the end of year 6 this is always a weeks residential trip where you go away for the week with the year group and do various activities but I opted out of going as I didn’t have many friends now and I didn’t like the idea of going and the possibility of getting bullied whilst I was away and also it just really didn’t appeal to me personally so that meant I had to go to school for that week with hardly any of our year group being in which sucked a bit but hey I was the one who decided not to go