Intoductory BSL Course 02/06/18

Published June 3, 2018 by goshgurl95

So for a while now I have been wanting to learn BSL (British Sign Language) for a number of reasons really firstly because I honestly think the language is so beautiful,

secondly as a skill and tool for myself to use what with my hearing loss, as I do still struggle a lot especially if I go out to restaurants that are really busy and or noisy either with people talking or  loud music or a combination of both, and also for things like nights out where the music is sooo loud ( I know I sound like a granny) to the point you can’t hear, i mean let alone with hearing loss.

Thirdly because I work in the childcare sector I think it’s a really handy skill to have for that, as I have worked with two girls with hearing issues who were due to get hearing aids, a little boy non verbal boy whose mum taught him sign language as he got on better with that compared to makaton, and I have a little boy at the moment at my new nursery that I work with that is non verbal who may also have hearing problems and a second boy who is also undergoing hearing testing and I just think you just never know when a child may come in using BSL or needing to learn it, although it is more common to use makaton with children (something else I would love to learn and be fluent in)  and yeah also looks good on my CV especially with childcare work .

 

Fourthly because it is an official registered language and I just think it is such an amazingly beautiful language (I know this was reason 1 but let me explain lol) and I would just love to be able to communicate with everyone really ,as it really upsets me that a lot of deaf people who rely on BSL actually live their lives in silence if they go into town for a bit of shopping that they won’t speak to anyone as they know nobody will talk to them or be able to communicate with them and this upsets me , everyone should have someone that talks and communicates with them when they’re out even if it only a shop assistant asking if you’d like a bag or asking you if there’s anything that they can get you or whatever.I mean I’m a talkative and chatty person so for me that would be my idea of hell not having anyone to communicate with.

 

 

fifth reason I  would love to be able to teach my friends, family, boyfriend, brownies, guides, and rangers sign , even if it is only the basics just so that they can communicate with others and be able to have basic conversations with other people and to be able to understand the value of the skill too. Another reason is I am now working on my Queens Guide Award within guiding and part of that is I have to learn a new skill for a minimum of 60 hours over the course of a year and what a better thing to set myself as a challenge to learn to do and to become fluent in.

 

I have found finding somewhere to do an actual face to face course extremely hard to do as the ones near me run primarily by the ACL (Adult Community Learning) are all 9-11am in the morning during the week which just isn’t possible or doable for me working full-time 40hrs+ a week , and with it being childcare too so there is no way possible I would be able to do that. Online courses I find are expensive and you don’t always know what you’re paying out for, like whether they’re official courses and qualifications, whether it’s teaching you the thing etc and I just personally would rather face to face. This has been something I’ve been looking into for a while now and haven’t been very successful in finding due to them being weekday mornings and also not a lot of them about anywhere near me, so I have been hitting a blank.

 

I was walking home from work Friday 1st June for lunch when I spotted a post on facebook from one of the BSL charities that I have been following. Saying how they were holding a free 3-hour introduction to BSL course from 10-1pm on Saturday 2nd June in Southend, and how it had been fully booked up but due to people dropping out they now had spaces available if anyone was interested. I hadn’t seen the original post so had no idea it was even on until I saw this, of course I immediately said could I please have a place and within minutes they messaged me privately telling me the address of the venue and asking whether I would  definitely be attending, of course, no doubt about it , this was the first chance I’d had of even finding anywhere remotely close to me to BSL (about an hours drive from me)

 

So yesterday morning I woke up early and got ready to leave mine at around 8.20am as I needed to get petrol on my way and didn’t know if the roads would be busy as it was due to be another hot weekend, so didn’t know if a lot of people with it being a Saturday would be heading that way to the beach for the day , and I also wanted to leave a little earlier than needed to make sure I had time to find somewhere to get parked before walking over. Luck I did as I didn’t get to the car park and parked until 9.45am, there were still plenty of spaces but it was starting to get busy, and I had 15 minutes to then get across to the venue.

 

I found the venue easily enough as I was very familiar with the area and knew the shop next door, I met a lovely lady on the doorstep to the venue and we got talking as we were both struggling to get in, as the door was locked but a note on the door said to press the buzzer  and that the door would then open, which it didn’t , so we waited until Kayla the lady who had organised the course came down and let us in and explained how she didn’t think the buzzer was working .

 

We headed upstairs and took our seats waiting for everyone else to turn up. First Carol Cook and Paula Parker, who would be teaching and running the course gave us a bit of information on BSL covering common questions such as can it be used worldwide, what does BSL stand for etc.

We then started off by learning the alphabet starting with the vowels (A,E,I,O,U) before adding in all of the other letters which wasn’t too bad I already knew some of them from when I had tried to teach the Brownies the alphabet from their brownie books and how to do their names  and  had done it a few times before so that wasn’t too bad, although I didn’t know A, E,I,O,U  were all on the same hand and the 5 fingers in order pointed at by index finger of your dominant hand and were a few other letters I wasn’t familiar with such as G, Y, Z and I knew F but wasn’t sure which way round it went, so was really interesting to do that , so we did this quite a few times so that it sunk in and we understood it.

 

We then split into 2 groups of 7 and were given a sheet with the alphabet letters in sign for our dominant hand and had to practise our first names in finger spelling which I think I was alright with as I had attempted it before with the Brownies and also again at work as in my previous nursery setting we had the BSL alphabet on the wall , and we then had to sign our first name to the rest of our group whilst also doing  the lip pattern to our names and the others had to try to work out what our names were, Once we had done this we then had to do the same again but with our surnames.

 

Once we had done this we then stayed in our groups and had a competition between us to sign female names for each letter of the alphabet, the first person started with a name starting with the letter A and signed it to the person next to them and they then had to work out the name and sign it back to them before they could sign the next letter to the next person and so on and it was the first group to do it that won, so basically a race between the two groups, our group won this 🙂 .

After this, we had a tea break with tea, coffee, water, biscuits, cakes, and chocolate before we continued.

 

After our tea break, we then went onto learning greetings, keywords, and phrases to introduce ourselves such as :

  • Me
  • You
  • Hello/ Goodbye
  • Good Morning
  • Good Afternoon
  • Good Night

and then went onto :

  • What is your name?
  • Nice to meet you/ You too
  • How are you/  I’m fine
  • Where do you live?
  • Are you Deaf?
  • Are you Hearing?
  • See you Later
  • Please/Thank you
  • Again/Repeat
  • Slowly

We practiced these together as a full group of 14 for a while getting used to the signs and then watching Carol and Paula signing a conversation using these phrases and questions a couple of times and working out what they were saying and how they were answering.

 

We then moved our chairs so we had two rows of seven facing each other and we then had to sit and have a basic BSL conversation with the person opposite us starting with Hello or good afternoon, how are you and then replying, then going onto asking names and where we live and whether we are deaf or hearing  and signing back names and places we live  and answering questions back to the person who signed it to us, to show that we understood what they had said . This was really interesting to do once we had done that with the person opposite one half of us moved down one chair and then did the same thing again with someone different and we repeated this a couple of times. The reason being was to get us used to using the signs and finger spellings and also because everyone signs slightly differently so it got us used to different peoples ways of signing.

 

Once we had done that a couple of times we then watched Paula and Carol sign some more conversations to each other and then they chose people at random from the full group to have a sign conversation with and had to reply in sign to questions that they asked, as well as doing the facial expressions and lip pattern of the words.

 

After this, unfortunately, it was the end of the course, the time honestly flew by and it did not feel like we had been there for 3 hours and honestly all it did was grow my love of the language more and make me so much more determined to want to go forward with this and get my level 1, level 2 and level 3 and to be able to do it fluently and to be able to sign fluent conversations . The ladies running it were absolutely amazing and the course was fantastic I certainly learned a lot.

 

I enquired about going forward and doing my level 1 as I knew that they had mentioned earlier in the day about how they have their charity which I follow on facebook and was how I found out about the day (Don’t shout out “BSL”) and they had mentioned how they run both level 1 and level 2 BSL courses. They said that they have two level 1classes starting September this year on weekday evenings, However, unfortunately, both of them are fully booked, so I was told to keep an eye out on the facebook page and website as they said that they’d had a lot of interest and were looking into running another level 1 class . So I left feeling that I would absolutely be doing this and keep my eyes peeled, as I got on well with the two teachers as well as everyone else and left having made some new friends that are now on my facebook, who have said about us meeting up for coffee to practise our sign and to catch up , and I just thought I wouldn’t mind travelling to Southend once a week for a couple of hours to learn BSL.

 

I spent the afternoon looking around the shops in Southend to take a bit more of a day of it before returning home early evening. Where I then messaged  Don’t Shout Out BSL page , as I had meant to speak to Carol before I left about getting a certificate of attendance made up as proof for work and for my Queens Guide Award record, as well as just generally thanking them for a fantastic course and to express my interest again in going further with it when I received this message back:

 

Hello, Bethan. It was lovely to meet you this morning and so glad that you enjoyed it. Well, I have some good news! Paula and I spoke about you this afternoon as we were very impressed with how you were doing and your obvious enthusiasm. So we are very happy to squeeze you in to the Monday evening course if you are interested. If you are, please let me have your email address and I will send the details over to you. Also, if you can send me your home address and I’ll pop an attendance certificate in the post to you. X” 

 

I was so excited I honestly couldn’t believe it, I was shocked. I had really enjoyed it but was surprised to hear that they both had been talking about me and had thought I had picked it up really quick , and of course messaged Carol back with my email address to get more information about the level 1 course sent over and of course my home address for an attendance certificate so I can use it as proof to work and my Queens Guide Award record, I honestly didn’t expect this at all but of course I have absolutely said that I would love a place on the course and have accepted can’t believe that from September this year I will be working towards achieving something off of my bucket list that I have wanted to do for so long and is such a vital skill too. I will have to do three exams for level 1 with the first being in November so 6 weeks after starting but I honestly cannot wait.

 

Things in life seem to be looking on the up and very happy and positive again which is great. I will update you on the course as and when I get more information about it and will try to make videos what I have learned so far or what I am learning as I’m doing it 🙂

 

speak soon 🙂 xxxx

 

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Meet Kermit…

Published June 3, 2018 by goshgurl95

Ok so in my last blog that I posted last night where I updated you all on whats been going on since my last blog post ,I mentioned at the bottom of the blog how I had another couple of things that I wanted to mention and talk about but however felt that they deserved their own blog posts, so the first is this.. The title doesn’t give much away, I hope, Or at least I don’t think it does so anyway let’s get on with things…..

 

So we all know who Kermit is right?! cute green frog from Disney’s the Muppets (one of my favourite Disney shows and my favourite Muppets character too) ..I promise this has nothing to do with Disney or green frogs, well kinda doesn’t …It’s a person… and well I’ve kinda been a  little naughty keeping secrets from you…

 

Ok so I may have been a little naughty and been keeping some secrets from you and well most people too in honesty, I’m sorry I promise :). I mentioned briefly that I was a single woman again, this doesn’t bother me as it was completely my choice.

 

I recently reactivated my Tinder account not expecting to match with anyone or expecting anything from it really but just to simply reactivate the account really. However this, of course, didn’t go to plan and I ended up matching with a really cute guy and got talking to him and we just seemed to hit it off and continued talking for quite a while online over the app and also on facebook, just getting to know each other.

 

We decided to meet up on the 5th May for the first time, and well what can I say… true gentleman, he drove to mine and picked me up (bonus that he drives) …

 

I was looking out for him from my mum’s bedroom window as her bedroom overlooks the front of the house, watching and waiting, because I mean you have to be so careful meeting people online you never know who they really are, but I wasn’t going to tell him not to pick me up either though, plus I wanted to get a good look of him first, just to make sure he matched his pictures that I had seen of course 😉

I watched him driving around looking for the house number and the butterflies yet again for about the millionth time kicked in and it all begun to feel real, I was so excited to meet him. Once he pulled up he got out of the car and waited next to it…….

Ooohhhh he matched his pictures alright, and I definitely liked what I was seeing, very nice looking guy, blonde hair that he had styled into spikes, cute plaid shirt, 3/4 length shorts, sunglasses oooohhh yes 🙂

 

I acted like I hadn’t seen him and waited for him to text me to tell me that he was outside and then acted like I had no clue at all as to where he had parked, I totally knew both of these things already but still couldn’t have him knowing this now could I 😉

 

Once I went out he gave me such a lovely cuddle and instantly got chatting, no time for any nerves and we went out for lunch at a lovely tearoom in Heybridge, Essex

 

and really got chatting and seemed to get on really well , that we forgot to order food and drink and kept having the waitress coming over .. OK  probably more like 2/3 times of asking us if we were ready to order and I think in the end we both just quickly chose the first thing that we spotted that sounded good (it all sounded good) . Once we had finished lunch we both agreed we weren’t ready to go home just yet and so hopped back in the car and drove a couple of minutes up the road to Maldon and we went for a lovely walk along the prom in the beautiful sunny weather (a rarity here) enjoying every second of this rare beautiful weather   and walked along chatting, getting to know each other.

 

We walked to the end of the prom before sitting on a bench right near the sea and again just sitting talking getting to know each other and having a laugh and finding out more about each other, and watching the tide coming in up to the boats. We then had a slow walk back up the prom, stopping for ice-cream he had a lemon sorbet ice-cream cone and I had a small pot of my favorite Mint Choc Chip Ice-Cream and started really having a laugh and joke with each other.

 

He then drove me home where again we didn’t stop talking, anyone that knows me will know usually I am quite shy and quiet at first until I have gotten to know people due to my past with bullying etc. However actualllyy once people really know me, they come to realise I’m not a quiet person in the slightest and I think this definitely showed today as we both were non stop talking.

 

Once we got back to mine being the true Gent that he is, he got out of the car with me and we stood on the driveway chatting and gave me another lovely warm hug to say bye and said that he would text me and speak to me soon.

 

Oh, he sure did soon text me back, well Ok I may have text him first… I know, I know totally against girl code, I’m sorry I broke girl code of waiting for them to text first …

I just him “Hey Kermit, thank you for lunch and for a lovely time, it was lovely to finally meet you  and put a name to a face and to have been able to get to know you better, I would love to meet up again 🙂 xx

 

He then texted back “ You are very welcome I am glad that you had a lovely afternoon, yes it was nice to finally meet and have a name to a face, yes I would love that too if you would fancy it”

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(ready & waiting in mums room for date 1) 

 

Ermmm yesss no doubt about wanting to see him again, We ended up texting back and forth all evening until I went to bed and this continued on happening so anyway date 2 happened on the evening of Wednesday the 9th May..

 

Again being a true gent he came and picked me up and we went over to Freeport and played 3 games of bowling, I was totally amazing at the bowling it was spectacularly breath taking 😉 I totally beat him , Don’t listen to anything else that he’ll try and tell you 😉  So yes we had a good laugh at my amazing bowling skills, as I was determined that there was no way I was having the bumpers up ,I’m a young adult now I should totally be able to do this without them 🙂

 

My bowling skills definitely gave us lots of laughs and lots to talk about too, not that we were struggling with that again!  I remember him calling me a cowgirl as I wore my white tassel top, brown Gilet, jeans and brown shoes. I had never thought of it in this way, good job I didn’t wear my brown hat and scarf too lol but that really made me laugh, so it was nice that we were already having a laugh and banter between us.

 

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( Date 2- proof of how good I am at bowling if anyone needed this) 

 

Date 3, then happened Tuesday  15th May.  This time he had booked us a table at a really nice local Chinese restaurant that I never even knew existed, good timing as I’d had my hair done earlier that evening,  Again being a gent he came and picked me up.

 

Again we had a lovely date and had lots to talk about and spent a lot of time getting to know each other again and sharing food too , we shared duck pancakes to start and then mains we shared  we had chilli beef, egg fried rice and of course chicken balls (can’t beat prawn or chicken balls with Chinese) . We then finished off with Ice-cream he had vanilla and I had my favourite mint choc chip again, not very often that’s an option in restaurants so of course, I was going to jump at that chance 🙂

Also on this date, it was the first time he had really complimented an outfit of mine so that was a huge confidence booster and was just really sweet of him and made me feel maybe he did like me and as though I wanted to keep making an effort to impress and look nice.

 

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(forgot to take a photo in the dress, but basically was this dress, brown wedged heels, brown bag, red lipstick)

 

It’s very safe to say that date 4 happened… on Saturday 19th May .

 

This time I drove as he was working a split shift so made more sense for me to drive and meet him so that we would get to spend more time together, we went out for lunch at a lovely restaurant in Great Totham called the Bull and Willow rooms, Again we had loads to talk about .I had a Fish chowder and he had a burger and chips all very nice .  We decided not to order dessert and to go and buy an ice- cream from a corner shop to walk around with , so that we could get out and enjoy yet another lovely sunny date, he had a magnum and I had peanut m&m (my favourite chocolate, never knew they did them in ice cream too absolute heaven even if most of it ended up on the floor )  . He took for me for a walk around Great Totham as this was the area that he had grown up in.

 

We then  stopped off at the park he used to play in when he was little and ended up sitting in one of those big round rope swings and sat there cuddled up swinging on the swing chatting and having a laugh , before walking me back to my car as he had to get back to work for the afternoon….

                                ( Ready for date 4) 

 

Each date was getting better and better and being better than the last which I didn’t always think was possible :).

 

We had arranged for date 5 to be the next morning and had planned to go for breakfast where he had lunch for our first date. However I had to cancel last minute due to coming down with my sister’s sickness bug, that had also been doing the rounds at work. I was gutted as I had been excited and looking forward to our breakfast date, and I hadn’t wanted Grant (Kermit) thinking that I was blowing him off or that I was no longer interested as this couldn’t be further from the truth.

 

Being the gentleman that he is he was totally understanding and had no problem with it and wished me well, He was actually really cute though as although I couldn’t see him that day he was popping over to his nans and stopped off at mine to drop a boxset of DVDs off to me (SAW) for me to watch in bed , I watched the first 3 or 4 the two days that I was off as I had really wanted to watch them for a while to find out what all the hype was about really,  OMG they’re amazing they get better as they go on..

 

Anyway so our new 5th date ended up being Saturday 26th May and again he was a gentleman and came and picked me up , we went to Freeport and had a rematch at another 3 games of bowling and It’s fair to say I wasn’t as bad as last time first game wasn’t great on my part, second one got better and I was catching him up… The Third there is photographic evidence of but I actually beat him with 99 points, a whole 10 points more than him and ended up with 3 strikes that game.

 

We then went across to TGI Friday’s for something to eat and some mocktails, seeing as Grant was driving. I think I ended up having the fried shrimp with Jack Daniel’s dipping sauce to start, whilst Grant had chicken strips with Jack Daniel’s dipping sauce and then Grant had steak and chips for his main and I had the Jack Daniel’s chicken burger with chips and apple slaw .. We then debated having a dessert and decided that we would share an Oreo Sundae , one glass two spoons kinda sharing 🙂

 

We then went for a wander around the shops (his idea I will add) and ended up having a look in Clarks as I needed some new black going out heels and also needed some black sandals as mine had recently fallen apart just a couple of weekends before… Oh, My … who knew a man could be soo good at ladies shoe shopping ?!!!! I spotted a lovely pair of black heels in Clarks that I loved, look at them, put them down and carried on looking around. I then for whatever reason just had to go back and have another look at them, when Grant then told me that he really liked them , so I decided I would try them on OH MY !!! amazing fit and sooo comfy and even better in the sale for £20 instead of £45 only pair in my size, so it’s safe to say that I rescued them from the shelf and they came home with me.

 

We then had a mooch around a couple other shops and ended up popping into TK Maxx and WOW he knows his ladies shoes alrighty as he picked me out a pair of black sandals off the shelf that I hadn’t spotted, tried them on and again perfect fit, so it’s safe to say that he will be coming shoe shopping with me again as I usually really struggle to find shoes that fit my fat, wide feet, especially so in summer months.

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(Proof I beat him and the heels I had to rescue)

 

Date 6 most definitely happened, this happened on 29th May …   Again he came and picked me up  We went out for pizza at Pizza hut for dinner, but as we were earlier than planned we popped over to the cinema to pick up tickets to see I Feel Pretty for after our dinner, he paid for my ticket which I totally didn’t expect especially as he has an unlimited card so he got in for free, as we share out paying for things as I don’t agree that it should always be a man that pays, I work and earn my own money so I like to pay too …

Anyway, we then went to Pizza Hut where we shared a sharing size  BBQ American chicken pizza and had the unlimited salad bar too, again lots of talking going on.We then went to the cinema and ordered a large bag of sweet popcorn (his favourite) to share and two large Tango Ice blasts and went to find our seats… The film was really good, part way through we ended up sitting closer and closer to each other

I ended up sitting there tickling his fingers and then he held my hand for a bit, before moving his hand to my knee and I sat there holding his arm and then moved my hand to hold his hand that was on my knee and we stayed sitting like that for the duration of the film. Once the film finished we then got up and left the screen and as usual, he held all the doors open for, but this time holding my hand, and he did that right the way up to the door of the car…

 

We got back to mine and we sat in his car chatting as we always do but this time it was for a lot longer, or at least it felt that way, but in a good way not like a it’s dragging out kind of way or anything … and then it just happened… He lent over and kissed me !! like proper kissed me !! our first proper kiss and OMG  it was absolutely amazing, literally so magical, instantly there was something there that I hadn’t experienced in a kiss before it was electric. It was as though the world around us stood completely still, and then it happened again at least another two times both being just as magical as the first. We both got out the car and got talking on the driveway as usual and then it happened again, all of them so perfect and meaningful and as magical and special as the last.

 

They were the sort of kisses that are long-lasting in the memory the memorable kind, like the ones you see in all of these romance films, exactly like that and I honestly didn’t think kisses like that were real I honestly believed these sorts of kisses only happened in books and films… clearly they don’t as I’ve experienced this myself now just no words at all for it.

 

It was the perfect night too as it was such a beautiful stormy night, as soon as I had got in the thunder, lightning and rain came down and was truly beautiful. Both of us text each and said how amazing those kisses had been and how for both of us there was something there like that spark just something magical.

 

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We have been constantly texting   and things have been going really well between us and  we’ve just been getting on really well ,we have a good laugh and joke with each other even if it is at my expense sometimes (bowling comes to mind)  but yes , well I’ll let you see some of the texts really  :

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Soo on that note I would like to introduce you all officially to Grant aka Kermit, whose 25 and a chef and lives very close to me,  he is a true gentleman, kind, caring, amazing at ladies shop shopping

 

and above all……….

My boyfriend after we finally broke the silence making it official on  1st June 2018.

 

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June 2018 (Update)

Published June 2, 2018 by goshgurl95

So it’s been a while since my last blog post, This was not intended I had planned to write my next blog straight after the last one I posted, well actually if I’m being honest I did write it straight after my last but just never finished typing it up and publishing it. At the time this was due to not having the time to do this.

 

However, since then there have been other reasons for me not posting, which have been quite personal. Basically, I had planned in my last blog post to have been telling you that I had met someone and was in a relationship with them and about how all of that was going. However… Long story short I ended the relationship as it was a very abusive and controlling relationship that took over my life ,I may blog more about this at a future date  ….However, that’s all behind me now and things are once again back to normal and are a lot brighter and happier…

 

I do now have a fair bit to update on really I guess and I do absolutely owe this to you , please do accept my apologies for my absence  but please do understand that this wasn’t an intentional break and now that things are alright again I have made my return, this was not the only thing that was given up , my whole freedom pretty much had been as I stopped doing a lot of the things I loved and enjoyed including my girlguiding rangers group, going out with friends for nights out etc, anyway enough of all of that….

 

Due to circumstances I have been spending a lot more quality time with my family and friends such as  going out for dinner with my family, going out for girly nights out again and meals out with my friends on a more regular basis and I’m actually finding that I am able to talk to my friends and family a lot more since which is nice to be able to do that and have the time to do this too . Recently I went on an alpaca experience day with mum and dad as part of my Christmas present ( my sister was supposed to come but was unwell) Being a massive animal fan this was right up my street we got to hear about the history of the farm, meet some of the alpacas including their  youngest ones,  took the Alpacas for a walk, not that they particularly wanted to walk as they ended up misbehaving and doing their own thing but anyway thought was there lol

 

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Since I last blogged a lot has changed again I’m now in a new job ,Still doing the same thing so still very much childcare and nursery work but I have since my last blog moved to a new nursery about 2 months ago now that is a lot closer to home and seems to have more career prospects after completing my level 3, which I am just finishing up the paperwork to begin .

 

The new job is going quite well, It’s more money as since I last blogged I have finally completed my level 2 childcare as well as finally passing my level 1 functional skills maths on my second attempt, anyone who knows me will know how much of a struggle maths is for me.I know a lot of people say they don’t like maths or struggle but it’s especially difficult for me with my Dyscalculia (mathematical dyslexia) so this was a Huge thing for me and I luckily found out I had passed this a couple of days before I was due to move to my new nursery, so a totally fresh start. It’s been a little surreal to be working as a qualified level 2 but really not much has changed as I’m still undertaking a key person role, still have the same duties etc. Just a different building, different staff and children really 🙂

 

However that said I do of course really miss my previous nursery especially so the children and families and of course the friends that I made in the staff however this hasn’t stopped me seeing my old work friends out of work as I recently attended a joint afternoon tea for my first room leader who is due to have a baby very, very soon and for my 2-year-old room , room leader who gets married in September this year which was absolutely lovely to catch up with everyone and just confirmed how much I have missed them . I do aim to meet up with them as much as I possibly can and do plan to pop into the nursery from time to time too especially for their events such as the summer and Christmas fetes.

 

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(Beautiful leaving gifts and cards from staff and children)

 

I also left with some great memories such as my first world book day dressing up as a giraffe from the book dear zoo which was our theme that year and also was one of my favourite books when I was little. This also happened to be my first meeting and assessment with my level 2 assessor, so what a great way to meet her 🙂

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I also left with amazing memories of all of the children, girly evenings out after work for spontaneous Chinese meals, going out to celebrate everyone’s birthdays over dinner and nights out, evenings out to creams for ice cream and desserts , the laughs and jokes we all and mostly the amazing children and the times I spent with them watching them grow and learning new things.

 

Since my last blog post, I have now gone back to my Girlguiding Rangers group and am back to attending meetings every other Tuesday night and have finally after a number of years now since completing my adult leadership with Brownies and Guides (which I have recently received my five-year award for) (it was due September 2017 but just been presented with it) but anyway ..

 

I have started and nearly completed my Look Wider Award which is a Girlguiding award that’s made up of different sections of activities  and challenges to complete such as outdoors, independant living, leadership, creativity, etc) ,I have also very recently decided to start my Commonwealth award AND on top of this I have also started my Queens Guide Award , which is the highest award that you can achieve in Girlguiding and usually takes around 3 years to complete and includes lots of challenges such as service to Guiding, expedidition or exploration, a research project, learning a new skill for over the course of a year, and quite a few other bits and pieces too which is aimed to be challenging , so this is exciting for me and so far all is going really well with that . I have set up a separate Facebook page, Instagram, and blog for this if anyone is interested in following my adventures in Guiding.

 

Also speaking of guiding I have finally learned how to sew .. .ok well blanket stitch and had gotten myself up to date on sewing all of my badges onto my camp blanket… However since doing so over those snowy few days we had I have now accumulated more badges and am no longer up to date on this, so I guess that’s what I’ll be doing either later tonight or tomorrow now that I’ve remembered this 🙂

 

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(Taken from my Girlguiding account I can’t seem to find the original photo sorry)

 

I am also finding myself spending a lot more time writing  more so typing which I am finding really therapeutic and enjoying and this can be anything really  mainly though they seem to be blog type posts and diary type entries that I have just been typing up and saving it onto my laptop  now that I finally have Microsoft Word back on my laptop again .I’m not quite sure what has brought my flare and love of writing back , but I’m not knocking it whatsoever as I always have loved writing since a young age and was a bit worried that it was drying up and I wasn’t any good at it anymore or as though the passion had been lost, so I am really pleased that this has returned and who knows it might even end up sharing some of these things , I mean they’re not much they can be diary/ blog type entries, daily thoughts etc but yeah who knows what I will actually do with them 🙂  this could also mean more blogs for you too you lucky lot 😉 Oh and I’ve gotten my love of reading back too not that you’ll be able to tell from the photo below, I was very excited by the prospect of free books 😉

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I have another two blog posts coming shortly, as I don’t feel it’s fair for them to be included in this I feel they need their own blog post so I shall blog you soon 🙂  xxxx

 

 

May 2017 update

Published January 29, 2018 by goshgurl95

OH  my it’s May already where has this year gone, I can’t believe it’s been so long since my last blog which was back in December now !. This blog is just going to be an update and to just let you all know I’m still alive… Still here :P, still blogging.Not forgotten about any of you.

I know I’ve been quiet for A while now and I do as always apologise for that I’ve just been busy with my new job, which I am absolutely loving every second of and am absolutely kicking myself that I didn’t get into this career path sooner.Honestly, my biggest regret is not going into childcare when I left school and doing it at college rather than doing animal care for 2  and a half years, before dropping out and working in a career I absolutely hated with a passion and made me so desperately unhappy. Before finally after 4 years being able to break free of the awful place and things that happened whilst I was there.

 

Work is going so so well I’ve been in my new job just over 6 months now already, seriously where has that time gone ?!! The children are great so funny and have brilliant personalities and I work with the best team of ladies I could ever have asked to get to know and work with, my manager is an absolute star so, so incredibly supportive and helpful every step of the journey and is just genuinely a lovely person.

It isn’t the easiest career anyone who tells you childcare is easy, so, so totally wrong or in the wrong job nothing about it is easy , but honestly for me I love the job, I enjoy getting up in the morning to see everyone I work with and especially the children and their little faces every morning that it honestly makes everything so worth it.It is THEEE most rewarding job, seeing the children achieve something new or learning how to do something and just generally becoming incredible people is more than I could ever ask.It’s scary to think that the children I have been working with since joining the team in November are going to school in September, It’s exciting for them but I am definitely going to miss each and every one of them, won’t be so easy for me as it will be for them but it’s lovely looking back to when I first started to this point now and seeing how far each and every single one of them has come .

As well as working 5 days a week in my new job, Where I am an apprentice so this means on top of working within the nursery I also have to go to college to which is once a week from 9 -2.15pm where I do two hours of lessons/workshop going over work etc and then we get a quick break before going to the computer room and doing an hour of self-study typing up notes from the morning or working on our assignments and then I do an hour of ICT  functional skills at level 1 .Then straight after I have to do an hour of maths functional skills , as I didn’t get a GCSE in maths at school due to my mathematical dyslexia (Dyscalculia) and school being unsupportive or helping, to the point they told me not to bother turning up for the exam as I would just be setting myself up to fail and that if I did turn up there would be no paper on the desk. Admittedly I am struggling with the maths but I’ll get there, it’s not like I have a lot of choice if I don’t pass I fail everything meaning I won’t be able to do my NVQ 3 childcare next year and also meaning I will not be able to work within childcare, so there’s a lot of pressure and a lot riding on me passing it.

So this means if I’m not at work I’m working on my course work and assignments or sorting bits out for observations and assessments or whatever.However also on top of that I am still pursuing being a Brownie leader through Girlguiding , although it does mean I do get there later due to my work finishing hours and getting there in the rush hour traffic, but I do my best to get there as close to time as I can.I’m usually anything between 15-30 mins late all depending if I get out of work on time and the traffic getting back.

I have also recently joint TWO rangers groups (also a part of Girlguiding) However this means I can still be a big child and enjoy activities and socialising and being silly really, whereas with the brownies and guides I have to have my sensible adult leader hat on.I am only really technically supposed to belong to one ranger group, but in all honesty, I like both the groups I went to visit and they’re both completely different one is a large group, one is smaller both meet different days and is every other week.There has only been one week that’s been the same theme which was a chocolate themed night but both units did different things one we did a chocolatier workshop and actually made chocolate lollies and chocolate pizzas, learnt more about chocolate, tasted cocoa beans.Whereas with the other unit we did word searches, easter egg hunt, made flannel bunnies, played a card game where you can snatch prizes (I ended up winning the main prize of a Freddo Easter egg) and enjoyed a chocolate fountain.So I’ve just decided to do both seeing as I’m paying for it anyway, so shhh that’s our secret that I’m doing both lol

On top of this I also like to now socialise and go out either with friends or people from work who are also my friends, and with working in a nursery there are a lot of social events  Christmas parties, engagement parties, birthday meals, birthday nights out, summer party, cinema trips etc and I honestly love hanging out with everyone outside of work.We’ve gone for spontaneous Chinese meals after work.

So This is kind of why I have been extremely quiet for a while really .I’m honestly loving everything right now and just enjoying life, I kind of want to say for the first time really as I honestly probably for the first time feel happy in all if not most areas of my life work is going well , I’m enjoying going out , I even weirdly enjoy doing my college work ,yes there was issues to start with so the college side of things got messed up and restarted in February this year as opposed to November when I first started but it’s cool it now means I have until the 9th of April next year to complete my level 2 qualification , already I’ve managed to get 36% of my assignments/observations completed and have another two due in , Thursday after next so that should then be more of my work signed off 🙂 .

 

Medically everything is ok, soon , although a few bits and bobs going on that I need to get addressed and soon although I keep saying this and haven’t actually gotten round to sorting it out yet, but it’s on the to-do list .I’ll update on all things relating to that once I know what’s going on too , the joys but hey life goes on 🙂 and I’m alright Hopefully just something simple really but yes a doctors appointment is on the cards soon.

 

Surgery wise everything is on hold what with my job now and everything I just physically haven’t got the time to be doing it at the moment , If I was able to take the time off and not get behind on work or things I need to be doing and whatever then yes I probably would have either done it or at least been further along the line of getting to that point , but it’s alright I’m ok with it .It’s been my choice to not pursue it any further at least whilst I’m studying and doing my apprenticeship, possibly even after that we will just have to see how life goes 🙂 .Honestly though I feel like I’m in a better place with appearance and everything , no I’m not 100% confident or there but I honestly feel my job has changed so much about me and in a way brought the real me out , or at least is helping for that to happen and to be an option again.

 

Charity and support groups wise I’m very much on the quiet side too, this doesn’t, however, mean I’m no longer interested or don’t want to be doing things or attending events but being on apprentice wages means I have to be really careful with money.Especially with having to pay for my car that is on finance and I’m still paying off, my phone bill , petrol it doesn’t stretch much further than that and even that at times can be a stretch but honestly to me the money doesn’t matter yes it has meant I’ve not been able to attend as many events such as mingles , or coffee mornings either purely due to the money side of things in being able to afford transport to London or wherever or with being at work or having work meetings and things going on .

 

A lot of the time now I get in from work go to brownies/ guides and rangers if it’s the nights I’m doing that and go to bed, other nights I’m either on my laptop getting work done for assignments or logging time on my smart assessor that tracks all my progress with work and everything or honestly I’m too tired and I’m sitting falling asleep with a cup of tea or hot chocolate in front of the TV but it has all been worth it and is worth it and I wouldn’t give any of this up for the world.983926_10208903861330560_2128893743693654853_n17951566_10209036125197074_3084598708617598551_n18157018_10209142164567992_5104280672017074301_n18157810_10209142164047979_7069099122975492532_n18193769_10209142163407963_5693944508214311331_n18300890_10209191140472359_3286067035124244431_n18699927_10209356716011644_7417896640997487890_n18767575_10209356716291651_1583855344217673928_n

2017 Goals..

Published January 29, 2018 by goshgurl95

Firstly I want to start this blog off by wishing everyone a very happy and bright new year,..2017 is finally here… it is crazy how quickly last year passed us by, some good things happened in that year and others, things we would rather put behind us and forget.

 

2016 was quite a good year for me personally I turned 21 in Summer and celebrated it A LOT  including an over night spa break with mum swimming, jaccuzzi, steam rooms, saunas, massages, facials etc, meal out with family and family friends, night out for dinner and clubbing after with friends another weekend,  lots of champagne and drinking going on there.

 

I left my job at McDonald’s that made me so desperately unhappy and traded it in for an apprentice position at a local day nursery, a massive pay cut but it has been worth it because it’s not about the money the job is just genuinely making me so happy.From my interview, starting up until now a couple of months in I’ve felt nothing but welcome there and am getting on soo soo well with everyone I’ve enjoyed nights out with the team I work with including celebrating an engagement, birthdays, just general nights out and even recently our Christmas do.Not once have I felt like I don’t belong or like an outsider or unwelcome, nothing like what I experienced in my previous job at all .

 

I had my bedroom redone and updated in January of this year into something that feels more me and a little more grown up .I’ve gone for a vintage themed room with pink and white floral wallpaper, had a tea shelf added in for my vintage cups and saucers, new bed and head board, new mattress literally in with the new and out with the old.

 

There’s been a lot of social activity I’ve spent a lot of girly nights with my friends eating out , ordering in takeaways and watching films with snacks, catching up in town over a coffee nights out for friend’s birthdays such as quasar, cinema trips , outdoor cinemas, lunch out, drinks out etc..

 

I’ve spent more time for me  this year too such as treating myself a little more such as getting my lashes lifted and tinted, as well as my brows waxed and tinted as a little something for me as I really feel this year I;m starting to become happier and on the right path heading to places I want to be headed, and I mean it’s nice to sometimes take the time out to focus on myself and that’s not in a vain way at all.

 

There has been some good things happen too such as I was officially discharged from Great Ormond Street Hospital in January this year after 20 years and 5 months which was actually really hard, as I’ve never had a time in my life where I’ve been completely hospital or medical treatment free and especially not so from GOSH .I’ve been .. well I guess I say I was travelling to and from GOSH since before I was even born before being taken on as a patient from 3 months old and having regular appointments and treatments with them ever since.It was filled with very mixed emotions I mean the staff, the teams, the wards and the hospital itself became home and my second family ..But I suppose I know it’s a good thing really but just a horribly odd feeling and I still cannot thank them enough for everything, nor do I ever think I will be able to.But I will always be incredibly grateful to them and owe them absolutely everything and more, They will forever hold a special place in my heart and I will never forget them.If anything this makes me more determined to continue fundraising and raising awareness in any way I can and with my blog too.

 

It has also been a hard year too as my sister has been battling with her anorexia and 2016 saw her spend 4 and a half months in hospital , However 2016 did see her get extended leave in January until her discharge, which made me the proudest big sister ever to see her fighting and kicking anorexia’s butt. Although it was rough seeing her readmitted only 11 short weeks later for another couple of months and then again a little later on into the year too.

 

2016 also saw us bring home our gorgeous pug puppy Mowgli who has become such an amazing addition to our family, especially through the tough times with my sister’s treatment and hospital, stays he basically became our rock and our little escape and therapy dog, well at least he did for me.When things got too much and I just needed to get out Mowgli was the perfect excuse, take him for walks and a good cry to clear my head, a friendly face to see after returning home from those god awful visits to the hospital and seeing the state my sister was in.

 

I did my first aid, first response training with Girlguiding back in January to something I really enjoyed doing and something that has always interested me in doing .2016 was also a year I found out who my true friends really are and who really is there in times of need.

 

Other things that haven’t been great this year has included having to go up to Head Office of McDonald’s due to being treated badly by my employer and abused because of my disabilities…But in April I finally had the guts to take a stand against everything that had happened in the past four years and put a stop to it by going up to London Head Office to argue my case of discrimination , in what my dad (who accompanied me as my witness) said I did in a very dignified and professional way despite intimidation to drop the proceedings.It wasn’t easy nor something I ever want to have to do again was horrid but I’d gotten to the point they’d given me no other option and enough was enough I wasn’t putting up with it.. this is definitely a moment of 2016 I don’t want to remember and want to put behind me.

 

May 2016 saw us celebrate my beautiful mums 50th birthday which was such an amazing night and a night I will not be forgetting in a hurry…There may have been some wine involved… I, of course, am completely innocent and know nothing about that 😉 .2016 also had a lot of 21st and 18th celebrations including mine and my sisters.. Although it was really hard an emotional having to spend my sisters 18th birthday in hospital with her but the main thing was we got to see her, she got some time out of the hospital locally and to stay in a hotel with us overnight  we also celebrated our friends, peers and year groups too ,so was a fair few parties this year..I totally remember my 21st birthday night out with friends………

 

I started a couple of months voluntary work in a local preschool for 6 months to get experience and to help me on my way to getting a job in a nursery which I absolutely loved and was sad to leave but had to do so, as I was offered my apprentice position at another nursery.

 

I’ve had some great fun with the brownies and guides including taking the brownies to gig for girls really early on a Saturday morning to dance, sing, be silly and give the girls that concert like experience whilst all getting to let our hair down and have a laugh too. I also completed my adult leadership officially with the brownies which was great, a lot of work went into it but every second of it has been worth it to become a fully qualified brownie leader, meaning now I can give the girls a lot more opportunities as well as getting more opportunities to do things within Girlguiding myself too. Other Girlguiding experiences have included spending a whole week camping with the guides locally at an international jamboree, meaning other girl guides and scouts across the world all came together to spend a week of fun, taking part in activities together and generally celebrating guiding…This was something I had vowed never to do again after bad experiences camping as a guide myself, but I have to say I loved every second of it and will be going along to jamboree in 2018 too hopefully.

 

this year also saw me have some good quality family time such as seeing grease sing along at a local outdoor cinema in the summer with mum where we took our own picnic of snakcs, wine, and prossecco, seeing my favourite film and book come alive on the westend stage as a 21st birthday present (Matilda the Musical) with my dad  (mum had already seen it) and had an absolutely amazing time dressing up with the red hair ribbon and dress that was similar to Matilda’s in the film and spending the day in London with dad visiting M&M world (my favourite chocolate), drinks in the pub and a spot of shopping too. Disney on Ice recently with mum and my little sister for a girly day out seeing as dad didn’t want to join us.

 

I also got my second tattoo done which was my Peter Pan silhouette tattoo for great Ormond street (I’m sure I’ve done an actual blog post on this and my reasons why it’s for GOSH and how it helps represent them, if I have go check that out, if not let me know and I’ll post it) .I also in 2016 decided to become an organ donor and signed the register,I mean I love helping people now why not help people when I’m gone not exactly as though I’ll be needing my organs at that point so why shouldn’t they go to someone who needs them.

 

 

So my goals and aims for 2017 are firstly for my sister to finally recover from anorexia and get to come home so we can enjoy more family time and be together rather than split.To continue doing my best with my coursework and everything for my apprenticeship , try to continue to be happier and confident in myself and just try to enjoy life and let life leads me, rather than me trying to lead it all the time and hopefully there will be a lot more fun, adventures and memories in 2017..

 

 

 

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May 2017 Update…

Published January 29, 2018 by goshgurl95

OH  my it’s May already where has this year gone, I can’t believe it’s been so long since my last blog which was back in December now !. This blog is just going to be an update and to just let you all know I’m still alive… Still here :P, still blogging.Not forgotten about any of you.

I know I’ve been quiet for A while now and I do as always apologise for that I’ve just been busy with my new job, which I am absolutely loving every second of and am absolutely kicking myself that I didn’t get into this career path sooner.Honestly, my biggest regret is not going into childcare when I left school and doing it at college rather than doing animal care for 2  and a half years, before dropping out and working in a career I absolutely hated with a passion and made me so desperately unhappy. Before finally after 4 years being able to break free of the awful place and things that happened whilst I was there.

 

Work is going so so well I’ve been in my new job just over 6 months now already, seriously where has that time gone ?!! The children are great so funny and have brilliant personalities and I work with the best team of ladies I could ever have asked to get to know and work with, my manager is an absolute star so, so incredibly supportive and helpful every step of the journey and is just genuinely a lovely person.

It isn’t the easiest career anyone who tells you childcare is easy, so, so totally wrong or in the wrong job nothing about it is easy , but honestly for me I love the job, I enjoy getting up in the morning to see everyone I work with and especially the children and their little faces every morning that it honestly makes everything so worth it.It is THEEE most rewarding job, seeing the children achieve something new or learning how to do something and just generally becoming incredible people is more than I could ever ask.It’s scary to think that the children I have been working with since joining the team in November are going to school in September, It’s exciting for them but I am definitely going to miss each and every one of them, won’t be so easy for me as it will be for them but it’s lovely looking back to when I first started to this point now and seeing how far each and every single one of them has come .

As well as working 5 days a week in my new job, Where I am an apprentice so this means on top of working within the nursery I also have to go to college to which is once a week from 9 -2.15pm where I do two hours of lessons/workshop going over work etc and then we get a quick break before going to the computer room and doing an hour of self-study typing up notes from the morning or working on our assignments and then I do an hour of ICT  functional skills at level 1 .Then straight after I have to do an hour of maths functional skills , as I didn’t get a GCSE in maths at school due to my mathematical dyslexia (Dyscalculia) and school being unsupportive or helping, to the point they told me not to bother turning up for the exam as I would just be setting myself up to fail and that if I did turn up there would be no paper on the desk. Admittedly I am struggling with the maths but I’ll get there, it’s not like I have a lot of choice if I don’t pass I fail everything meaning I won’t be able to do my NVQ 3 childcare next year and also meaning I will not be able to work within childcare, so there’s a lot of pressure and a lot riding on me passing it.

So this means if I’m not at work I’m working on my course work and assignments or sorting bits out for observations and assessments or whatever.However also on top of that I am still pursuing being a Brownie leader through Girlguiding , although it does mean I do get there later due to my work finishing hours and getting there in the rush hour traffic, but I do my best to get there as close to time as I can.I’m usually anything between 15-30 mins late all depending if I get out of work on time and the traffic getting back.

I have also recently joint TWO rangers groups (also a part of Girlguiding) However this means I can still be a big child and enjoy activities and socialising and being silly really, whereas with the brownies and guides I have to have my sensible adult leader hat on.I am only really technically supposed to belong to one ranger group, but in all honesty, I like both the groups I went to visit and they’re both completely different one is a large group, one is smaller both meet different days and is every other week.There has only been one week that’s been the same theme which was a chocolate themed night but both units did different things one we did a chocolatier workshop and actually made chocolate lollies and chocolate pizzas, learnt more about chocolate, tasted cocoa beans.Whereas with the other unit we did word searches, easter egg hunt, made flannel bunnies, played a card game where you can snatch prizes (I ended up winning the main prize of a Freddo Easter egg) and enjoyed a chocolate fountain.So I’ve just decided to do both seeing as I’m paying for it anyway, so shhh that’s our secret that I’m doing both lol

On top of this I also like to now socialise and go out either with friends or people from work who are also my friends, and with working in a nursery there are a lot of social events  Christmas parties, engagement parties, birthday meals, birthday nights out, summer party, cinema trips etc and I honestly love hanging out with everyone outside of work.We’ve gone for spontaneous Chinese meals after work.

So This is kind of why I have been extremely quiet for a while really .I’m honestly loving everything right now and just enjoying life, I kind of want to say for the first time really as I honestly probably for the first time feel happy in all if not most areas of my life work is going well , I’m enjoying going out , I even weirdly enjoy doing my college work ,yes there was issues to start with so the college side of things got messed up and restarted in February this year as opposed to November when I first started but it’s cool it now means I have until the 9th of April next year to complete my level 2 qualification , already I’ve managed to get 36% of my assignments/observations completed and have another two due in , Thursday after next so that should then be more of my work signed off 🙂 .

 

Medically everything is ok, soon , although a few bits and bobs going on that I need to get addressed and soon although I keep saying this and haven’t actually gotten round to sorting it out yet, but it’s on the to-do list .I’ll update on all things relating to that once I know what’s going on too , the joys but hey life goes on 🙂 and I’m alright Hopefully just something simple really but yes a doctors appointment is on the cards soon.

 

Surgery wise everything is on hold what with my job now and everything I just physically haven’t got the time to be doing it at the moment , If I was able to take the time off and not get behind on work or things I need to be doing and whatever then yes I probably would have either done it or at least been further along the line of getting to that point , but it’s alright I’m ok with it .It’s been my choice to not pursue it any further at least whilst I’m studying and doing my apprenticeship, possibly even after that we will just have to see how life goes 🙂 .Honestly though I feel like I’m in a better place with appearance and everything , no I’m not 100% confident or there but I honestly feel my job has changed so much about me and in a way brought the real me out , or at least is helping for that to happen and to be an option again.

 

Charity and support groups wise I’m very much on the quiet side too, this doesn’t, however, mean I’m no longer interested or don’t want to be doing things or attending events but being on apprentice wages means I have to be really careful with money.Especially with having to pay for my car that is on finance and I’m still paying off, my phone bill , petrol it doesn’t stretch much further than that and even that at times can be a stretch but honestly to me the money doesn’t matter yes it has meant I’ve not been able to attend as many events such as mingles , or coffee mornings either purely due to the money side of things in being able to afford transport to London or wherever or with being at work or having work meetings and things going on .

 

A lot of the time now I get in from work go to brownies/ guides and rangers if it’s the nights I’m doing that and go to bed, other nights I’m either on my laptop getting work done for assignments or logging time on my smart assessor that tracks all my progress with work and everything or honestly I’m too tired and I’m sitting falling asleep with a cup of tea or hot chocolate in front of the TV but it has all been worth it and is worth it and I wouldn’t give any of this up for the world.

New Beginnings …New Adventures

Published December 29, 2016 by goshgurl95

In my last post you may have noticed I said I needed to change an appointment to a school half term and that I now may not be able to continue down the surgery path for this moment in time or any time soon .The reason for that is also the biggest reason as to why I have been so quiet on my blog ,Facebook page and twitter lately.That’s not to say I haven’t been wanting to tell you all but I just wanted to wait a while until things were settled and everything.

 

No I am not pregnant nor have I had a baby before anyone gets that idea .I am still very much single and a baby is certainly not on the cards anytime soon.

 

Most of you will know that I work for a fast food chain , mcdonalds .. Well Saturday 29th October  after having a lot of issues at the store and with the management in particular , to the point I had to go up to head office in April to report two members of the management including my business manager due to things they said about me which were highly offensive and unprofessional. Being  falsely accused of a lot of things without them being looked into properly, not being appreciated , always being expected to stay on without being asked or any noticed, scheduled outside of my availability, and genuinely not being happy in my job.To the point I would come home and cry most nights, I would dread getting up to go to work, whilst driving to work I would be thinking about turning round and coming home, purely because I knew what I would be going into and facing day after day.I often pulled into the car park and wanted to drive straight back out and I would sit in my car until the last possible minute before going in.Purely because my job made me so desperately unhappy.

 

So on that Saturday 29th October I finally walked in on my day off and handed my notice in , and told my manager I would be leaving on Monday 31st.I was supposed to give two weeks notice,however due to our store closing for refurbishment and my manager wanting us to all relocate to another store  in London which would have taken me a lot longer to get to work and I was still expected as a drive to stop off at our store to collect other staff and give them a lift to and from .I had already booked those five whole weeks off because I was not happy with the idea of doing so, and also because I was already so deeply unhappy in my job anyway I didn’t see what good it would do if I relocated for those few weeks.I had already been offered a transfer in April although I felt it shouldn’t be me that was made to move , so opted to have the time off unpaid. So I told my manager to take my 2 weeks notice out of the five I was  taking off unpaid..

 

I had kept the fact I was leaving a secret for a good few weeks before handing my notice in as I had applied for a new job and had gotten the job a week after I went for the interview ,I had waited to tell McDonald’s for a couple reasons:

  1. They had messed me around A LOT
  2. They never told me my schedule until the last minute
  3. I wasn’t seeing eye to eye with my boss anyway over everything that had happened
  4. I wanted to wait until the new job was definite
  5. I wanted to wait until all the paperwork and contracts had been signed

 

My boss already knew I was leaving ,as I’d had to put down an employment reference so had put down one of the managers I got on well with , and she had emailed asking my boss if it was OK for her to do it etc .So he was already aware I would be going even before I had said anything, but in honesty it made it so much easier and straight forward to do.He basically just said to me was I leaving because of the issues between us, which I partly was but also wasn’t I mean I had wanted to leave for quite some time , however if I hadn’t found another job I would have had no choice but to stay there , as I wasn’t about to just leave with no job to go to or anything like that.He actually apologised to me , which was the first time he had actually done that, I honestly hadn’t expected that , well not this late on anyway .I expected some sort of apology at least in April , rather than just all the awkwardness, avoiding me, speaking through me to other people , shutting doors on me etc. BUTTT HE SAID SORRY and it took me by utter surprise.He told me he would get the other manager to complete the reference that day, as I had explained to him that I had signed the contracts and everything and they were just waiting on that.

I had staff saying they didn’t want me to go but also saying to me I was doing the right thing in going and even had customers saying well done when they realised I was handing my notice in and complaining about the company, even though I had never met them before.I actually walked out those doors crying.. crying tears of relief and happiness knowing it was finally coming to an end.

 

I was sooo happy going in on that Monday knowing I was on an early shift (out side of my schedule availability) but hey and just knowing it was the last ever day I would have to put up with it all and ever see those awful people again.I actually came out crying at the end of my last ever shift handing my uniform and things back and finally walking out the door.Not one of those tears was due to sadness it was all just pure relief and happiness , as I honestly hated that job so much and at times I couldn’t see any escape or way out of it.It was just 4 years and 4 months of true emotion coming out .Everything that had been bottled and kept in , behind that fake smiling person serving customers and clearing up them.I was finally free .Surprisingly my boss was on the phone when I was leaving.. hmm ironic..

 

Anyway once I’d left and got in my car to drive home, I thought I would quickly check my Facebook and emails etc seeing as I wasn’t allowed my phone during working hours so this was the first time since I’d had my lunch break at 10 am I had been able to check my phone.It was a good thing I did as I saw I had a missed call and an email asking me to ring HR of my new job back.I am so glad I did as they actually wanted me to start the next morning, I of course accepted.

1st November 2016 I started my first day as a level 3 apprentice in childcare at a local day nursery and it has honestly been the best thing I have ever done, It was honestly the right time and the right decision to leave my old job .I actually haven’t looked back or regretted it once.Yes it’s a lot less money as I’m on an apprentice wage, but I honestly don’t care everyone has been so welcoming, so kind,friendly and the kids are amazing .It is everything I could ever have dreamt of and more.There have been a few complications with the qualification side of things though and I am now going to be switching from an apprenticeship onto a level 3 NVQ meaning I will have to do more hours, 2 hours at college instead of half day and study in my own time.Honestly it doesn’t matter to me all that matters is I am finally in a career that makes me so super happy and has restored my faith in humanity, where I feel a part of the team , where I belong .I have noticed such a change in myself since starting ,I now want to get up for work every morning, I don’t want to go home at the end of the day, the time goes sooo much quicker,  I want to stay on , I want to take shorter lunch breaks, I want to be involved in everything I possibly can such as Christmas fetes, special evenings and events ,  and everything that happens I want to be there and be part of it.At the weekends I miss being at work and can’t wait to get back Monday morning to see everyone. I have the BEST team .I love everything about it ,I cannot say there is one thing I dislike ,I just love it and to me it doesn’t feel like my job , it just feels so right and I honestly could not be happier if I tried.

 

I have noticed i’m becoming a better person, I’m happier at work and home, I’m so much more myself  at my new job,I’m super comfortable, I am so much more confident and I don’t mind asking questions and finding out new things, I literally want to know everything and everyone.I want to be at all staff events .This is honestly my dream come true and this is why I’ve been dead quiet on here because my job has literally become everything to me, that doesn’t mean I don’t want to do my blogs anymore nor does it mean I will stop but if I don’t post for a while please understand I may be doing work things or studying so that I can gain my qualification to achieve my dreams.A few quotes that ring so true right now are:

 

 

dreams do come true ,if only we wish hard enough.You can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it -Peter pan

 

If you keep on believing the dreams that you wish will come true– Cinderella

 

All our dreams come true , If we have the courage to pursue them Walt Disney

 

NEVER EVER let anyone tell you , you can’t do something or that you will never achieve it because the truth is if you want it badly enough you will get it in the end, just keep trying and keep fighting for what you want.Trust me take it from me I was told all through secondary school I would amount to nothing, I would never have a proper job, I would never pass GCSE .Well I’ve passed GCSE ,I am worth more than McDonald’s and I can and will work a proper job in a nursery that makes me so super happy.Who has the right to tell anyone they can’t or won’t do anything? Absolutely no one , the only thing stopping you is you.My only regret is not doing this sooner, yes it has taken a lot of evenings searching and applying for jobs,lots of rejections, a lot of getting no where ,failed interviews, etc but it has happened it has all paid of .All those years of searching and dreaming have paid of I’ve made that first step into happiness and into my future life.

 

This is why I was saying in my previous blog I don’t know if I will now go ahead or be able to go ahead with surgery , as my new job means so much more to me and I have a lot studying and work to do to qualify and complete my qualification but what I do know is whatever is meant to be certainly will be.I never honestly expected to be able to say at the end of 2016 I would have been working in my dream job for nearly 2 months,I just never expected it at all but it means so much to me and has changed everything.I literally cannot thank my boss enough for giving me a chance and taking the time to interview me , then taking me on ..WOW I can’t thank her enough for that and I don’t think I ever will be able to do so. I can’t thank my boss enough for giving me the opportunity, the opportunity to shut the door and move onto pastures new .Most importantly the opportunity to prove I can do this and how passionate I am about doing this

 

Never EVER let anything or anyone stop you from achieving your dreams and always remember you are never to old to believe in anything , nor are you to old to wish or to have your dreams come true ..Nor are you ever to old to believe in happily ever afters .You have the power to do anything no matter what anyone says, or what medical conditions you may have.Fight for what you want in life , never give up and hold onto every hope and chance with everything you have XX