In my last post you may have noticed I said I needed to change an appointment to a school half term and that I now may not be able to continue down the surgery path for this moment in time or any time soon .The reason for that is also the biggest reason as to why I have been so quiet on my blog ,Facebook page and twitter lately.That’s not to say I haven’t been wanting to tell you all but I just wanted to wait a while until things were settled and everything.
No I am not pregnant nor have I had a baby before anyone gets that idea .I am still very much single and a baby is certainly not on the cards anytime soon.
Most of you will know that I work for a fast food chain , mcdonalds .. Well Saturday 29th October after having a lot of issues at the store and with the management in particular , to the point I had to go up to head office in April to report two members of the management including my business manager due to things they said about me which were highly offensive and unprofessional. Being falsely accused of a lot of things without them being looked into properly, not being appreciated , always being expected to stay on without being asked or any noticed, scheduled outside of my availability, and genuinely not being happy in my job.To the point I would come home and cry most nights, I would dread getting up to go to work, whilst driving to work I would be thinking about turning round and coming home, purely because I knew what I would be going into and facing day after day.I often pulled into the car park and wanted to drive straight back out and I would sit in my car until the last possible minute before going in.Purely because my job made me so desperately unhappy.
So on that Saturday 29th October I finally walked in on my day off and handed my notice in , and told my manager I would be leaving on Monday 31st.I was supposed to give two weeks notice,however due to our store closing for refurbishment and my manager wanting us to all relocate to another store in London which would have taken me a lot longer to get to work and I was still expected as a drive to stop off at our store to collect other staff and give them a lift to and from .I had already booked those five whole weeks off because I was not happy with the idea of doing so, and also because I was already so deeply unhappy in my job anyway I didn’t see what good it would do if I relocated for those few weeks.I had already been offered a transfer in April although I felt it shouldn’t be me that was made to move , so opted to have the time off unpaid. So I told my manager to take my 2 weeks notice out of the five I was taking off unpaid..
I had kept the fact I was leaving a secret for a good few weeks before handing my notice in as I had applied for a new job and had gotten the job a week after I went for the interview ,I had waited to tell McDonald’s for a couple reasons:
- They had messed me around A LOT
- They never told me my schedule until the last minute
- I wasn’t seeing eye to eye with my boss anyway over everything that had happened
- I wanted to wait until the new job was definite
- I wanted to wait until all the paperwork and contracts had been signed
My boss already knew I was leaving ,as I’d had to put down an employment reference so had put down one of the managers I got on well with , and she had emailed asking my boss if it was OK for her to do it etc .So he was already aware I would be going even before I had said anything, but in honesty it made it so much easier and straight forward to do.He basically just said to me was I leaving because of the issues between us, which I partly was but also wasn’t I mean I had wanted to leave for quite some time , however if I hadn’t found another job I would have had no choice but to stay there , as I wasn’t about to just leave with no job to go to or anything like that.He actually apologised to me , which was the first time he had actually done that, I honestly hadn’t expected that , well not this late on anyway .I expected some sort of apology at least in April , rather than just all the awkwardness, avoiding me, speaking through me to other people , shutting doors on me etc. BUTTT HE SAID SORRY and it took me by utter surprise.He told me he would get the other manager to complete the reference that day, as I had explained to him that I had signed the contracts and everything and they were just waiting on that.
I had staff saying they didn’t want me to go but also saying to me I was doing the right thing in going and even had customers saying well done when they realised I was handing my notice in and complaining about the company, even though I had never met them before.I actually walked out those doors crying.. crying tears of relief and happiness knowing it was finally coming to an end.
I was sooo happy going in on that Monday knowing I was on an early shift (out side of my schedule availability) but hey and just knowing it was the last ever day I would have to put up with it all and ever see those awful people again.I actually came out crying at the end of my last ever shift handing my uniform and things back and finally walking out the door.Not one of those tears was due to sadness it was all just pure relief and happiness , as I honestly hated that job so much and at times I couldn’t see any escape or way out of it.It was just 4 years and 4 months of true emotion coming out .Everything that had been bottled and kept in , behind that fake smiling person serving customers and clearing up them.I was finally free .Surprisingly my boss was on the phone when I was leaving.. hmm ironic..
Anyway once I’d left and got in my car to drive home, I thought I would quickly check my Facebook and emails etc seeing as I wasn’t allowed my phone during working hours so this was the first time since I’d had my lunch break at 10 am I had been able to check my phone.It was a good thing I did as I saw I had a missed call and an email asking me to ring HR of my new job back.I am so glad I did as they actually wanted me to start the next morning, I of course accepted.
1st November 2016 I started my first day as a level 3 apprentice in childcare at a local day nursery and it has honestly been the best thing I have ever done, It was honestly the right time and the right decision to leave my old job .I actually haven’t looked back or regretted it once.Yes it’s a lot less money as I’m on an apprentice wage, but I honestly don’t care everyone has been so welcoming, so kind,friendly and the kids are amazing .It is everything I could ever have dreamt of and more.There have been a few complications with the qualification side of things though and I am now going to be switching from an apprenticeship onto a level 3 NVQ meaning I will have to do more hours, 2 hours at college instead of half day and study in my own time.Honestly it doesn’t matter to me all that matters is I am finally in a career that makes me so super happy and has restored my faith in humanity, where I feel a part of the team , where I belong .I have noticed such a change in myself since starting ,I now want to get up for work every morning, I don’t want to go home at the end of the day, the time goes sooo much quicker, I want to stay on , I want to take shorter lunch breaks, I want to be involved in everything I possibly can such as Christmas fetes, special evenings and events , and everything that happens I want to be there and be part of it.At the weekends I miss being at work and can’t wait to get back Monday morning to see everyone. I have the BEST team .I love everything about it ,I cannot say there is one thing I dislike ,I just love it and to me it doesn’t feel like my job , it just feels so right and I honestly could not be happier if I tried.
I have noticed i’m becoming a better person, I’m happier at work and home, I’m so much more myself at my new job,I’m super comfortable, I am so much more confident and I don’t mind asking questions and finding out new things, I literally want to know everything and everyone.I want to be at all staff events .This is honestly my dream come true and this is why I’ve been dead quiet on here because my job has literally become everything to me, that doesn’t mean I don’t want to do my blogs anymore nor does it mean I will stop but if I don’t post for a while please understand I may be doing work things or studying so that I can gain my qualification to achieve my dreams.A few quotes that ring so true right now are:
dreams do come true ,if only we wish hard enough.You can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it -Peter pan
If you keep on believing the dreams that you wish will come true– Cinderella
All our dreams come true , If we have the courage to pursue them– Walt Disney
NEVER EVER let anyone tell you , you can’t do something or that you will never achieve it because the truth is if you want it badly enough you will get it in the end, just keep trying and keep fighting for what you want.Trust me take it from me I was told all through secondary school I would amount to nothing, I would never have a proper job, I would never pass GCSE .Well I’ve passed GCSE ,I am worth more than McDonald’s and I can and will work a proper job in a nursery that makes me so super happy.Who has the right to tell anyone they can’t or won’t do anything? Absolutely no one , the only thing stopping you is you.My only regret is not doing this sooner, yes it has taken a lot of evenings searching and applying for jobs,lots of rejections, a lot of getting no where ,failed interviews, etc but it has happened it has all paid of .All those years of searching and dreaming have paid of I’ve made that first step into happiness and into my future life.
This is why I was saying in my previous blog I don’t know if I will now go ahead or be able to go ahead with surgery , as my new job means so much more to me and I have a lot studying and work to do to qualify and complete my qualification but what I do know is whatever is meant to be certainly will be.I never honestly expected to be able to say at the end of 2016 I would have been working in my dream job for nearly 2 months,I just never expected it at all but it means so much to me and has changed everything.I literally cannot thank my boss enough for giving me a chance and taking the time to interview me , then taking me on ..WOW I can’t thank her enough for that and I don’t think I ever will be able to do so. I can’t thank my boss enough for giving me the opportunity, the opportunity to shut the door and move onto pastures new .Most importantly the opportunity to prove I can do this and how passionate I am about doing this
Never EVER let anything or anyone stop you from achieving your dreams and always remember you are never to old to believe in anything , nor are you to old to wish or to have your dreams come true ..Nor are you ever to old to believe in happily ever afters .You have the power to do anything no matter what anyone says, or what medical conditions you may have.Fight for what you want in life , never give up and hold onto every hope and chance with everything you have XX