Hey everyone I am soo soo sorry for being so quiet for so long on here, I hadn’t realised how long it had been , it was only when I wrote out a list of things I wanted to talk about on here and actually logged in that I realised a couple of blogs I wrote (one at the end of 2016 and one in May 2017) were the last posts I had written but hadn’t published for some reason..I honestly can’t believe it’s been so long and I really do apologise for that, there are however a couple of reasons as to why I’ve been quiet (Don’t panic I’m not pregnant, I haven’t had a baby or anything like that).
So firstly happy Hunnakah, happy christmas, happy new year and anything else I’ve missed .. I promise I’m back this time, I know I only apologised for being quiet a couple of blog posts ago… So please let me explain myself…….
Ok so firstly one of the reasons why I’ve been so quiet was due to me being discharged from Great Ormond Street Hospital in January 2016 and just in a way feeling that was it , the end of the road , not just medically speaking but I kind of felt it also meant the end of the road for my blog, as my blog is medically based, follows my medical journey, experiences with bullying and what have you .I just felt if I blogged about everyday life where there wasn’t anything medically going on , no hospital appointments, no health issues or whatever that it may defeat the object of my blog and may not attract some of you to want to read this .I also just felt for anyone new that may come along to read my blog thinking it’s about microtia and everything else, which it very much is , that if they came and looked and only saw the every day, day to day things this might put them off a bit as I know those of you who do follow my journey are on the same paths yourselves in one way or another. So I guess this is why I’ve kept on the quiet side on here as well as my facebook page that is linked to my blog and support groups.I feel now is the right time to get back into the swing of things as I’m hoping I have now found or can find that right balance between the two,.
Now, this doesn’t mean I’ve not wanted to blog or post or nor does it mean I don’t want to be doing any of this anymore.Don’t get me wrong I love writing, I love this blog and all the support groups and would still be there to help whether I continued blogging or not, but I have felt lost without my blog to be honest. There has been so much I’ve wanted to tell you and share with you ..The more I’ve contemplated not blogging under this name anymore and setting up a new blog for day to day things, the more I’m drawn back here and have come to realise no matter what I am and always will be GOSHgurl95 as this was the year I was born and the year I became a GOSH patient and hospital or no hospital nothing changes my story nor the name.
Now just feels like the right time to get back into the swing of things and get you all updated on a few bits and pieces that have been going on, as this is not the only reason for my quietness and those that know me off of my blog and social media will know I’m far from a quiet person….
Other reasons for me being quiet has been where I’ve been busy with my new job as a nursery apprentice, what with the actual work itself Monday-Friday and then all of my college assignments and work that I have been working on in the evenings towards getting my qualification , so that’s taken up a fair bit of my time getting that completed, sorting my folders and files and everything out, as well as training courses and things after work such as first aid training, autism training, basic sign language training, health, and safety, safeguarding etc ,staff meetings, room meetings, parents evenings etc it has been hard to find the time to blog.Quite honestly most the time I’m getting in from work having dinner and getting ready for bed where I’m so tired, however, I wouldn’t change my job or anything about it for the world I absolutely love it still and is still one of the best decisions I’ve made.
It’s crazy to think that I’ve been in my new job over a year now well a year and 2 months to be precise, the time has honestly flown by , this is another reason I’ve been so quiet time has just literally flown me by and I can’t believe that already were at the end of January….
I am still absolutely loving my job as hard as it can be at times I wouldn’t change it for the world and I still do not regret my decision and still wish I had gotten into this a long time ago, like when I left school and started college ,I just wish I could’ve known then what I know now and chosen this path, to begin with so I could’ve been further along in my career and could’ve taken it further by now, but then again I’m a believer in everything happens for a reason.I’m now nearly finished with my level 2 qualification as I’ve completed all of the coursework, observations, practicals, and assignments a month earlier than my sign off date .All were waiting on now is for me to be ready for and booked in for my level 1 functional skills maths exam, and once that’s done and passed , then my exit paperwork for level 2 can be completed and processed ..You would think I would then get a rest or a break or be done with everything…You would be wrong indeed no rest or break for me, as I’ve made the decision that as soon as I’m officially signed off my level 2 I’ll start my level 3… Now I didn’t have to start this straight away I could wait a while until September 2018 if I wanted,but me being me I would rather just crack on with it ,get it done ,get qualified ,get on normal wages and find the next thing to do, whether that be level 4 (when they roll this out as of September 2018), some kind of Uni course in child care or maybe even going onto specialising as a play specialist or children’s nursing, who knows we will see where life takes me and what’s on offer after level 3
Due to my new job it has also created more of a social life for me whether this is just training and courses after work or at weekends, or fundraising at weekends for the nursery such as our Christmas bazaar etc, lunches and dinners out with the lovely ladies I work with at weekends or in half terms around my shifts as I work all year round, no school holidays off .We’ve done things such as going out celebrating each others birthdays over dinner, drinks etc, nights out, Christmas do’s, spontaneous nights out after work to creams for ice cream and puddings etc.This has been something that is very new to me as I’ve never done this not in my previous job or even with college friends, but I have to say I’m loving it and it’s really nice to catch up with everyone out of work as we don’t really get the chance to talk properly in work , unless were on lunch breaks together but even then it’s difficult to do this.
Other reasons I’ve been so quiet have included me still being very much active as a brownie and guide leader and spending Thursday evenings after work with the brownies and then the guides for our weekly meetings doing various activities, badges, challenges etc as well as weekend trips away or days out, sleepovers, camps .Such as sleepovers in our local museum, I’ve helped in organising and taken 2 of our brownies up to London in 2017 to see the trooping the colour with other leaders and their brownies, after winning free tickets to go, this was the weekend of the terrorist attacks in London , so we had a lot of drop outs but I was determined I wasn’t letting the girls down and we would still go, plus it was something I wanted to do and see too, On top of this, I was still at two rangers groups which one met every other Tuesday night and the other met every other friday night and doing things there and also at weekends such as an overnight stay in London (weekend after trooping the colour) Where we stayed at headquaters, went to westend live and I saw my favourite show Matilda there, as well as touring around London, Other trips have included a trip to London where I walked over the O2 arena something I din’t know if my dyspraxia would allow me to do but we survived it and made it back in one piece much to my mums relief, and then went on to looking around the olympic park stadium, followed by dinner and onto seeing Matilda the musical at the westend, the weekend after that I was out with my family doing a zoo keeper shaddowing expirence that I had got for christmas, and then after that went home quickly got changed and drove over to a local rainbow unit that were having a sleepover and were a leader short so volunteered myself to help them out for the weekend..
.I cut the Friday night Rangers group and I’ll explain why a little later on into this blog, I don’t want to give it all away just yet 😉 I may even keep the suspense of that going until my next blog if I’m feeling mean enough (to be honest I’m thinking I will as it will beequite long and nope not pregnant nor have I had a baby)
I’ve just honestly lost track of how fast the past year has gone and it’s crazy to think I’m now 22 where did that go?! I’m going to leave this blog post here along with some photos of 2017 from May onwards and will reveal my main reason for being quiet in my next blog post…….
2017 was also a good year for meeting people I met Charlotte Crosby at her book signing local to me, I met Stephen Mulhern in my home town when walking back from town……